Thursday, October 12, 2006 how wonderfully emo i have been for the past few days!
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school sucks, life sucks, love life sucks. very few people have made me really laugh, not the fake laughs and smiles i put on when i go to school or go out. i feel like i'm starting to hide behind a mask again, like i did when i was, well, younger. i want to tell people, or some people, but there are always limits to how much i can say, how much others will let me say, and how much they will listed. there is, of course, always the question of how much they will understand.
i hurt with each word you say, i bleed with each moment i cannot see you.
haha i can't even remember the last time i felt this way. perhaps over mata? i don't know. i can't remember, i've got a bad memory. sigh.
so much for waiting for the right moment. so much for waiting for everything to be perfect. so much for taking things slowly..
it's only resulted in me missing chances. chances that i'll never have ever again.
it's always the same situation for me. i always wait too long then lose out to some other girl/person. you'd think from past experiences i would have learned.. apparently, i have learned nothing. i'm still stupidly waiting.
and how long more shall i wait before i decide to actually DO something about it?!
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7:58 AM
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