Thursday, September 14, 2006 i tried to talk to him, was it yesterday or a few days ago? anyway, two years and nine months.. and all it has come down to is one word answers.. after less than five words the conversation just.. died.
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i know that it was like that before, but the fact that he probably doesn't care any more really hurts me.. i try to talk to him, but he's not interested. sometimes all i really want is for him to talk to me again.. i just realied(again) how much it really hurts.
i don't really understand why things turned out the way they did, but this is the situation now. he won't talk to me, much less look at me again..
sigh. i should have taken that chance when he offered it to me.. now i'll never know.. because he'll never look at me again.. he probably can't get over me not choosing him ba.. but back then it was complicated.. it was tough for me too.. it wasn't that i didn't want to.. i really really wanted to. i still want to. i want to find out how it's like, you know.. but i guess i missed my chance le..
i can only hope that things will "repeat" again and that you'll start talking to me..
but i guess.. seeing the way things are now, worse than they were last year or the year before.. i guess that's not a very big possibility? =(
ah~!!! nat shall stop emo-ing~!! haha..
oh well.
i'll always remember.. the me beneath the facade.
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